I'm finally free to blog! been quite busy doing my Nabisco report, trying to study and doing all the stupid applications.. i was so sian last week with all the work that I didn't feel like going for GB so on last fri night...

(email)
me: Hi my dear officers, I've to rush my report and so can't come for GB tmr, so sorry, cya all next wk!

Later at night...

(sms)
CAptain faith:Hi gal, can you come tmr?

me: sorry, i got to rush a report and also visit my aunt who is in hospital

faith: but we really need u, coz nobody can teach them drills, i promise you that it will only be a short while k? PLEASE

me: ok loh -_-

And so on sat morning i've to drag my feet towards church, hoping that time will pass v fast, anw i only promised them that i'll be there for 1 hr haha

so when i opened the door to the rm.........

ITs ACTUALLY A SURPRISE PARTY FOR ME!!!

i was really quite surprised and was really touched! Of coz there was the cake, whereby they forced me to take out the candles using my mouth. -_- But i still have to go early coz i really have to visit my aunt (it's true k !), its certainly a memorable 21st bday!

Anw i've done my ubs numeric test yest and it was like SHIT. i was so upset with myself coz i knew i did a bad job. some i didn't even understand the qns, and some my ans i cant even find in 1 of the 5 options! i was really very depressed coz i really love the position that i've applied for ubs. And barclays, Credit Suisse have already rejected me! *sob*

I'm so sad that I start to wallow in self-pity and complaining to dy that how come my life is out of season, with so many sad things happening around? And i really complain for damn long! I can already feel the stress building up coz exams are near, and my job search is not going smoothly, wtf.

After which when i got back to my rm, I'm still v sad and can feel the lump in my heart, I decided to do some quiet time, and I can say that the day's msg really spoke to me.

its taken from Luke 10: 38-42 (see I can rmb the verse haha), the story about martha and mary if anybody can rmb. Jesus was visiting the 2 sisters' house and martha was preparing all the food, cleaning the house blah. But mary was just sittting at the Lord's feet and listening to him. Martha began v angry n told Jesus," Jesus, can u pls tell mary to help me in the work, she's not doing anything!" But jesus ans," MArtha, you're anxious and troubled about many things, but 1 thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her."

And i can sense god saying, "Liyi, you're always worried and upset about many things, all you need to do is be still and listen to God. "

Perhaps some of us are too busy with responsibilities in church and in sch and constantly complaining, wallowing in self-pity. BUT God will help you get the work done, what he really wants is a follower who makes time for Him. And also, exercise your gift well!

k that's all for the day, hope that those who are reading can learn something as well. I will learn to put my trust in the Lord, but if UBS really rejects me, I WILL STILL COMPLAIN haha.