stupid ryan and weihan kept teasing me at the tags and seriously i'm not angry, i know they don't mean any harm and its just plain joking around. however it lets me ponder abt the matter.

i'm so used to all the teasings all these yrs and i will joke along with all those people. but it kinda gets on my nerve sometimes, some people may think that i'm too petty and some other friends think i should have the right to be angry for always being aimed by people. well below is an entry about how i feel, the reason for writing this is to explain myself once and for all after the 'inspiration' haha, i'm not targeting at any individual but talking about people generally:

alot of people whom i know will ask me why my nose is always red and will tease me to participate at the play on xmas. seriously i'm not angry at all! i dun see any point to be angry and i will play along with them, saying i'm an impt factor of xmas. if one of my friends has the same 'situation' as me, i will tease him/her also.

however jokes, when said repeatedly, are not funny anymore. u imagine me hearing all these 'rudolph' thing for so many yrs, do u tink it is funny for me? imagine i have to entertain so many people through the years for so many times! i dun mind new friends asking me n teasing me, coz its 'getting to know you' stage, but i really cant stand old friends still teasing me everytime they see me, i mean u have nothing better to say to me? its kinda tiring n boring to entertain people of the same thing over and over again, so old friends, PLS SPARE ME THE TORTURE! havent people heard of the fact that "jokes get old?" and pls spare me the boredom.

so let me stress on the fact that i'm not angry, i'm irritated coz i'm bored by people's no sense of creativity.

and talking abt my high pitch voice, i'm more irritated by it then the 'red nose' thing. first of all, i'm v proud of my high pitch voice. due to the wide range i can hit with my voice, i can present in a variety of tone, and not having to present with a monotonous voice. and for your info, i'm TRAINED to talk this way back in pri sch, coz i'm always the representative to stand up stage for storytelling competition in pri sch and sec sch. and i'm ALWAYS in the top 3. and so when i started to present in jc or uni, people think that i'm faking an accent or being too slang. so now i have to clarify that i'm not faking! this is the way i was taught when i was so young! so i cant control it, its already part of me. and for everyone's info, i toned down and tried to control the 'variety of tone' to prevent misjudgement of other people.

and secondly why i'm proud of my voice is that i can hit high notes when i sing. so those people who laugh at my high voice, i was wondering "can u hit high notes when u sing? do you sing like a toad?" so if you cant sing celine dion's songs, i suggest you seriously consider the quality of your voice first.

i really wonder why people think that its ok to irritate people of their voice or physical attribute and on the other hand won't laugh at people of their sizes or acne skin bcoz its so sensitive. isnt laughing means laughing regardless of the context? seriously i'm really glad that i'm blessed with a nearly perfect skin, but i don't go around laughing at other people because their skin conditions are so bad. seriously do u see a fat person and tell him" hey u can become the next moses lim" or tell a person with bad skin conditions "did you eat alot for oranges coz u have orange skin?" so if you think that its v bad to say that, why do you think that laughing at other people at other things is ok?

having said that, i really must clarify that i really don't mind people teasing me, i will still joke with you even after this entry. but i don't want people to take it for granted that i'm an easy target. and no i'm not angry, i hate people who ask me to calm down and relax when actually i'm calmed! this is the way i talk and i know people will misunderstand and think that my tone is harsh sometimes. i apologise if i'm harsh to anyone before but this is the way i speak and i'm trying to improve on it!